Can you find me now cause I'm lost in my head, suck in the dark under my blanket in my bed.
Swallowed up by the pain, trying to fight to stay sane.Broken like glass, never got to pray at Sunday mass.The message in my head is will it ever stop!
Will I ever make it out of my bed? Out of this sad and tortured head?Stuck in quicksand, waiting till I'm finally dead.
I'm tired of lifting myself up.When I crash in a burning car, as I fall so far apart.The blood gets thicker as it drips, down my scared up legs.I want to just wash this pain away.
I want to be able to hold you, to be with you.And get lost in your dark desired brown eyes.I cry when we're apart, wondering when the next time I'll be able to feel your warm heart.
Without you I feel empty.Where's the sun? At the moment I pull out the gun.To blow off my head!Where are you when I grab the pills, as I slit my wrists in the warmth of a blood filled bath.
Thinking of you just makes it harder not to grab the rope as I hang off a tree till I snap my neck and crack my head on the blood covered rock.Laying there forgetting all my pain.Finally being free.
From the pain, the suffering, the endless torture.A tear falls down my face as I lay in peace.About to close my eyes for the last time.
I keep missing you till my last breath.Escapes my collapsing lungs.
Under a star filled sky, wondering what it's like to fly.
With wings through the clouds.Will I make it to the golden gates or be sent to eternal suffering under the graves.